Opportunities or distractions?

This week I had to think really hard about what I want when an opportunity was put in front of me out of the blue. An old friend got in touch and was looking for an expat for a job in the Middle East. The job sounded great and the timing couldn't have been better in terms of my life here in Edinburgh.

On reflection though, too often I find myself distracted by the interesting things that are thrown in my path and end up taking a different direction to the one I thought I was going to take. This serendipity has until now been an OK way to live my life, but I found this week that not all opportunities need to be taken there and then, sometimes they can become distractions.

Thinking about the manic activity of everything an overseas move entails and the comedown when I stop to draw breath made me realise that all I would be doing is displacing my grief yet again. In the end I said no, thank you, I wouldn't be applying on this occasion. I need to take the time I've planned for me, to find who I am again now my life has changed so significantly.

My journey will be just that, an odyssey of the mind and body where the destination is not the goal. I want to reconnect with who I am at my core and what it is I truly want out of life. I must learn to listen to my own inner voice again and my intuition. I need to learn to stop and smell the roses. Opportunities will present themselves again, but there shall be no more distractions.